II 2: All about Kundalini

What is Kundalini?

It is an experience. It is something which is rare and happens to a limited number of people with certain astrological alignments or it is gifted from entities or powerful humans. It is neither magical nor extraordinary. Without training it is like TV static and even if you are trained in it then the trainers pass their expectations onto you.

Real untamed Kundalini requires knowledge of history and techniques to use it. Otherwise, it can end up in non-productive ways. For example, servitude, occult, gimmicks to impress simpletons or wasted on stupid goals.

If I have to define it, I will call it the fertility of the ash. Let me explain. The application of Kundalini is immense. A singular definition of the subject will be impossible to attain. The ash is very fertile and it is identityless. Ash is the last form after we burn something. Now ash is ready to take new forms that fertility is Kundalini.

The god of death consumes everything and turns it into ash and the fertile manure is Kundalini.

How to get it?

Naag Lakshmi, the infinite bluish-white ocean of milk (Kshear Sagar), the snake mother is the source of infinite Kundalini.

The snake mother is the personification of Kundalini. In reality, it is an all-pervading force. Once her gatekeepers allow you to meet her, you will experience something you haven’t experienced. The first time It will be overwhelming and it will remain overwhelming for about a month. You will feel an energy flowing through you like opening a campaign. Secondly, it is not beyond your control, you are always in control.

Yes, we know what the authoritarian book of Slavers says but similar things were said about a vague figure impregnating virgin women. We do not believe in servitude but opening our eyes and look for the truth. We are not sheep looking for a shepherd because when the tiger comes the shepherd will be the first to run. Let the shepherd pretend to be powerful and the sheep live in their delusion. There are tigers, ancient even before the “God” came into existence. It’s not blasphemy when you have witnessed it. Do not depend on the 2000-year-old attestations from people whose scientific temper allowed them to burn women as witches.

The world needs people with vision. Sheep are disrobed, milked and killed by their shepherds.

Steps to get it?

Worship Naag Lakshmi and do Bhuvenweswai beej in an elongated voice in the evening, 12 times daily for a month. This must be done after 3 months of only Vegetarian diet and not touching alcohol.

Do not expect something big.

What to expect after getting it?

Nothing 😂, no miracles will happen, no heavens are promised. It is just like opening your eyes in a world where people have glued their eyelids shut. There will be some clarity but more confusion. You will start to peek into a world which humans have not visited for a long time. You will have to learn to climb ladders on your own.

Is Kundalini risky?

Yes, if you do stupid things or your guiding forces are stupid. Always remember that some people and entities are more powerful than you are. Never try to have domination and never use Shakti offensively. If something invades your personal space or someone even plans to do it, feel free to use it for defence. Kundalini must be used for your life’s betterment and importantly for knowledge. Think about your profit, not other’s loss. This all is just suggestive, you are free to do anything.

If something happens then contact me using the contact page.

II 1: Project Inside Initial

There is a disdain towards anything spiritual in a large part of the population and the others who are into concepts like god, yoga, meditation, and breathing processes are just looking for relief from fears or a community to belong to.

Even if there is a genuine venture into the wilderness of the spiritual domain, it is lost in either servitude, risky attempts, domination, or obsessive complexes.

I am not an ideal person that you could look at as a guiding star but I have experiences and concepts that are rare. Gyanamrita is just an expression of my life and I am sharing it.

Inside Initial is a short article series. Read it, I hope it entertains you and let’s travel together.

For some vengeance is more important than solace, story of Karma and Kama

In a time unknown there was an entity named Baghiratha. During his spiritual journey, he found out that there were sixty thousand of his ancestors stuck in the nether realm. He realised that he couldn’t progress any further spiritually without managing them.

Karma has multiple sources, some of which you are born with. Collection of previous lives. Some are inherited from the blood you are born in. Some are given to you by nature to set up your story. Some you do and there are results. While others are just random. There are words like Sanchita (acquired), Prarabdha (destined), etc to define these. So, it’s not always your doing. If the womb you were born from was not strong enough to sustain you, well then you would not have been born the best you could have been.

If we say that the universe has a beginning and an end then what made the first king a king and the first beggar a beggar? Since there was no Karma to begin with. If the first beggar was created a beggar and a king was also made a king then nature is not impartial. These questions are avoided by the people who use the word Karma just to sound mystical and deep. Some others believe that the universe is continuous and neither has an end nor a beginning. I have not reached a point to affirm either of the claims.

What I know is that I do not wish to be shackled in the Karma system. See, I have been in the depths of my existence. I had been in both divine and evil states. I have found that both of these intentions exist within me. I have seen people who would not even hurt a mosquito and I have seen people planning to rape. I do not distinguish between the two. Just like a monk, I have a possibility to become divine and just like a rapist, I have seen bad intentions inside of me. I do not understand the dichotomy of good and evil. These are the properties of my existence and either could be exhibited. My desires will definite what I will choose.

Nothing could truly be evil. Even Hitler had to take refuge in a religion before systematically killing Jews. Similarly, nothing could be completely divine either. I feel surrendering love and murderous hate towards the same person. So whom am I to judge a monk or a murderer?

Bagiratha did something that was never done before, he called a celestial power called Ganga and in an instant she freed his 60,000 ancestors. Even a load of one ancestor can create significant harm and his load of such magnitude is unimaginable.

I did a similar practice on a smaller magnitude. There were many massacres which are lost in time. There are curses and boons for which the memories are lost in time. These all sins and virtues run in our blood. If one needs to go further, either we avoid them or encounter them. If we avoid them, we will have to sacrifice much and if we encounter them, we will have to relieve the memories lost to time. Many times when people talk about taking away or dissolution of Karma, most of the time they are talking about avoiding or closing the gates of that Karma. We can forget the past but the past never forgets. Houses are burning and we have chosen to close the door and the day the same fire reaches our house the closed doors will make it a coffin. The selective choices of ignorance and disassociation are bad. I feel that we must always encounter and manage the past.

So I chose to encounter the past. I took a vessel full of Ganga Jal and gave it to the spirits of those who were vengeful. They resisted the peace that I offered and wanted vengeance against their foes. We the successors of both the killers and the killed have forgotten the history but the ancestors live in their states. The ancestors took me the same as their enemy because I was the one hindering their Kama (desire) towards vengeance. Kama is to be managed before Karma.

Now, I do a little foretelling. We have already crossed a point of no returning in the Gregorian year 2019 and the world will burn even more. There is a time when all creditors and debtors are made to settle their bills and now, we have come to that point. Killers and killed will change roles. We do not have much choice. Roles will invert. Poles will invert. The choices that we have are only about the things we will do after the settling event. The past must be settled to make the future come alive. Settlement is not about debtors and creditors changing roles. It is about zero balance. We can not avoid or dissolve Karma, it must always be managed.

During the settlement event. Either we could continue the story, killed become the killers? Or we take the better path and forgive them? Third and the best option is to ignore the settlement event and be neutral and I do not see this happening. The vengeful will take vengeance. There are some type of methods which could be used to dissolve Karma but many will choose to stay what they are. Sometimes people prefer pain and misery over better alternatives.

Nature of knowledge of Vedas and why Vedas can not be read

Page 1/2: Nature of knowledge of Vedas

The knowledge in Vedas is called Aapurusheya. This word translates as non-human origin. Even if we go into deeper distinction, the knowledge of Vedas is given no source to it. Yet every section of Vedas is attributed to a Rishi. Osho pointed this out in one of his discourses. How could knowledge given by a Rishi have been called without origin?

There is no source to Vedas but multiple deities are associated with Vedas. Vishnu’s, Hayagiva and Varaha avatar are the protector of Vedas from demons. Vishnu’s Matsya avatar saved Vedas from a celestial catastrophic event. God Brahma is supposed to have all of the four Vedas in his four hands. So does his wife Saraswati. Brhama’s wife’s extension Gayatri is called to be the very manifestation of Vedas. Now, none of these deities are associated with the origin of Vedas. They are personifications, saviours, rescuers or holders of Vedas but none of them are the origin of Vedas.

Rishis who are titled to be discoverers of Vedas, themselves do not claim to be the origin. They just discovered what existed. Just like Einstein discovered Relativity, he did not make Relativity. Relativity always existed. Similarly, Rishis are discoverers of Vedas, not the origin.

Knowledge could have multiple origins. Some knowledge is just mutually agreed upon. The whole community of English speakers with good colour perception will consider a spectrum of colour as Red. This is the way any language works. Some knowledge makes sense mathematically and regardless of the language, people of understanding will reach the same conclusion. Two plus two is four, in every language. Some knowledge comes from working on things and discovering more about them, like how science proceeds. Some knowledge is intrinsic, no one teaches a bird how to fly. So there are multiple types of Knowledge.

I will personally consider Veidic knowledge as an intrinsic understanding of Nature. A normal human has two eyes. Now this is a fact but why? Physiological science will answer this question by explaining from a basic understanding of the body to a deeper understanding of DNA These are the answers to the how. The why part of this understanding deals with multiple aspects like philosophy, physiology and theology. If someone perceives Vedas correctly, the how and the why part of the question about the existence of eyes will be available to the person without any search and experimentation like we do in the field of science.

Vedas is not magic that a person will just know things. In science we need to work on things and spend time in observation, similarly, Vedas have different approaches. Many Rishis were never classed as humans either. They existed since the origin of Brhamanda. Their spirits manifest with different names and different bodies but these souls are timeless. In each cycle of time, they are again supposed to restore the knowledge which has been corrupted. They work on their Vidhayas to know and to utilise. So the knowledge written down as Vedas never claims to be perfect, the Veda is a realisation rather than a finite set of knowledge. You never know if the written Veda is completely available or even if it is corrupted.

When I say spirits of Rishis manifest with different names and bodies. In Hinduism, no one knows who truly is the manifestation of the Rishi or God or even something evil. Even you could be a manifestation of a higher class of spirit. The literature explains spirit as both unitary and melting into a higher non-singular existence. In time of God Krishna, Ved Vyasa, Krishna’s cousin Shishupal and some other people too possessed Narayana Tattva. Shishupal was raised in a way to believe that he was the complete avatar. In his astral form, he possessed four hands like God Narayan. This raised the dispute between Krishna and Sishupala which resulted in Sishupala’s end. So it’s very hard even to determine who truly is a Rishi or not.

Spiritually we all possess something divine or evil or both. The seat of God is not reserved for holy sons and prophets. You are equally divine, and so is the whole of existence.

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When the Creator is not enough, story of initial Gods

Before our Brahamanda (Galaxy) was created by Brahma. There were a few entities called Swayambhu. Swayambhu means one who originated spontaneously, they exist without parentage. Shiva, Brahma, and Vishnu are considered few of them, many of them have no relevance to us so we forgot them.

Initially, Brahma was more powerful than any other god. He was described as Golden, shiny and full of life. Once he began the formation of Brhamanda, he didn’t stop till he lost it all. He poured all of his life force into his creation. He lost his lustre and life. He was shown as an old man. He still possessed enough power but not comparable to that of other Swayambhus.

Once he finished, a group of Gods ruled over the creation. These Gods were called Prajapatis. Pajapati means lord of lesser beings. (Actual meaning is lord of Praja = beings.) Now these beings unanimously chose Brahma as their ruler because of respect and realization that he was the one who truly created and holds it all.

Few Prajapatis were Swayambhus and few were created by Brahma, even the created beings who were created by Brahma like Prajapati Daksha had enough power to create entities by his own will. These Prajapati had their ways and dominion. They must not be taken as a uniform group of entities, they were powerful and very different in their understanding and approach towards creation. Post-creation events some Prjapatis were even more powerful than Brahma.

The story proceeded and newer beings did not readily accept the rule of Brahma. They sought power and other Prajapati were offering more than Brahma. The system was showing cracks in the structure of the hierarchy. Nobody is devoid of pettiness. Brahma had a few problems and he challenged Vishnu and lost the challenge. Along with the challenge he lost his respect and status too. Prajapatis were divided now. Vishnu became a separate ruler and certain beings started to worship him individually. Brahma had a life-changing event he took a backseat. Nobody can deny that Brahma is the father but it must also be realized that people will even forget their father if they want to. The throne of Brahma was succeded by the rule of Daksha Prajapati.

Let us understand the character of Brahma. Brahma is the god of creation and father to almost all of the entities. He creates the Brahamanda but let’s understand that he does not do it out of responsibility but out of his natural impulses. It is his nature to create like it is the nature of a bird to tweet. He is also not the supreme knower. When Brhamarishi Vashsith (sage) was going through the understanding and invocation of Mahavidhya Tara, he was not able to guide him properly. Nature is not the creation of Brahma, Brahma just shaped the available Shakti to take a particular form. Even that too is done within the rules of nature, he can not supercede the rules of nature.

The cracks in the union of Prjapatis were evident post-Brahma’s rule. Vishnu and Shiva were being worshipped separately. Daksha held a grudge against Shiva/Rudra/Bhairava (or someone, Vedas and Puranas have an ambiguity towards the definition of Rudra). Daksha held Shiva/Rudra/Bhairava responsible for the disrespect and downfall of his father Brahma. Events happened and even Daksha’s throne fell. It was also the point where evident violence happened between Prajapatis. Daksha could very well be the Goat-faced deceiver, the beast, of the Abrahamic faiths. We do not know what happened to Daksha after that. Some evidence is there in Hindu society of his downfall. The people with clan names as Prajapati lost their status in the social hierarchy. Some other communities like carpenters, potters and masons too lost their status in the social hierarchy, when Brahma fell. It must also be noted Daksha was the first God to differentiate beings based on power, type and existence. He was the first one to ride around a palanquin carried by humans, not animals. He was one of the first to have this classification of superiority and inferiority. The end of his rule

Now the era of projeny of Daksha came. These became the Anupalakas, Kshetrapalas and Lokpalas. These are titles of nobility like those in a Kingdom, like duke, marquess, earl, viscount, baron, etc. Lokpala is a ruler of a dimension, it is a separate world. Lokpala distributes his responsibility amongst Kshetrapalas (Rulers of the big regions – countries and continents) and further, it is distributed amongst Grampalas (Ruler of Villages/City). These entities share their rules with shared responsibilities. These Gods serve as guidance to rulers and common humans. These beings also give rise to different cultures and religions across the planet. They call themselves angles, Devta, etc and they even could prefer to exist faceless and nameless.

The Prajapatis had some sync and understanding of others. Even today the higher Lokpalas have some coordination but lower ones are mostly ignorant and fight for their throne and status. They come from an ancient cycle of hate and ignorance. Some of these are even considered demons by others. Two brothers of the Daitiya lineage named Hiranyakashyapa and Hiranyaksha tried to attack the domain of Vishnu. Their names translate as creator and holder of the Brahamanda, respectively. They were defeated by Vishnu. It is to be observed that these beings are Godly to us but they are not Godly to one another. Vishnu is considered one of the Swayambhus and the two entities mentioned above are the third lineage of the initial gods. Now with every lineage the power of God decreases but here Hiranyakashyapa and Hiranyaksh considered themselves to be powerful enough to challenge the domain of one of the first Swayambhus. Is it either ignorance, vengeance or just foolish, I can’t say that but it is certainly daring.

We must also understand that our literature narrates our side of the story. Daitya Kula is one of the eight major Kula. You can not eliminate them. I am in the position that the problem must be eradicated from the roots. I have made advances in the direction that if Diti is evil then why not just end her? This is a foolish idea that I used to have. These Asta Matrika are the physical manifestation of fundamental Shaktis, one can not wish them away. Your energy system has her signature, you can not eliminate her without mutilating your own body and energy system.

Your very own body is evidence of these Gods’ existence. These Gods flow through your breath and serve as the base reality of our existence. These Gods do not need your constant worship to remind them of their Godhood. Brahma, whether you acknowledge him or not, he will exist in the very base of your existence. He doesn’t want your worship, he is a reality that awaits your discovery. A tree remains a tree and does not need a constant reminder of its existence. It is only the modern God that constantly needs to be pampered with prayer. These modern Gods that proclaim that “I am the one and only true god”, remember that same words were used by Hiranyakashyapa. His limbs were separated from the body like twigs from a branch. There are ancient realities which must not be trifled with even these do not care for your worship or acknowledgement. They exist like the air which is always around us. If the air is removed, these Gods, realities, goals, ambitions and life itself will fail. No Palakas could ever supersede the fundamental reality.

The Hierarchy and The Revolution

Since you were born, you belonged to a social stratum. You also were born with a genetic and energy makeup. These determine your identity and personality. These also determine how you will behave in a certain scenario. These estimates and the boundary of human existence fascinated generations of Jytoishies. They were fascinated with time and humans and devised methods to estimate time.

I had many encounters with Jyotish and those were enough to convince me that it works. I met various people who dedicated their lives to understanding Jyotish and they didn’t charge a penny for it. Instead, they invested capital to get resources and texts to understand the subject. Nowadays it is a billion-dollar industry that is more about self-help cons instead of actual estimations. Somewhere the actual science is still alive.

Let’s look at the fundamentals of Jyotish. It is about the estimation of the impact of subtle Galatic energies on the life of human beings. The solar system and the constellation are all located within our galaxy. When a human is born and with the first breath it is constituted that the body is fused with the cosmological alignment of that very moment. These alignments are used to determine the life of a human. Whether you like it or not, these alignments work and these could both serve as a trap or a boon.

On the other hand, the chart of birth is called Kundali. This chart maps out how the Kundalini is estimated to flow within one’s body. Kundali and Kundalini are not disconnected words. These alignments are very hard to change. Crystals, Gemstones, Yogasanas, and even Pranayamas, could help to alter the situation but nothing can truly change the base alignment.

Every day we wake up with a different face. On a particular day, we look beautiful in the mirror and some other day same face appears dull and weak but all of these changes do not make the overall face lose its original character. You walk on the street and people are still going to realize it is you. The base alignments are impossible to change.

A rock shall never behave as a liquid in the general scenario. If it is introduced to a very high temperature, it could take a molten state and flow around a bit but a rock generally does not “flow”. This is the working principle of Jyotish. These methods, Gemstones and Yogasana could force your energies to behave in a particular way but these are like crutches. These work but do not make the actual disability go away.

Now if my chart says that I will be subjected to poverty in life and even specifies a time then do I sit back and wait for it to happen? This scenario also gives rise to the free will versus determinism debate. The Jyotish and Tantra are connected. These could be taken as different fields of study but the underlying principle is the same. You could be the type of person that believes in God’s grand plan but sorry to say that I am not part of your God’s plan. I shall not fight in Krishna’s, Ram’s or Muhammad’s army. I am here to explore the depths of life. This hierarchy or deterministic future that is enforced on me shall not be the path that I will be dragged on.

This realization of the deterministic nature of human life is the beginning of a revolution where one seeks to create one’s destiny. The realization that I stand alone is not easy to cope with but the realization that I am just a pawn or NPC in the larger game hurts more. The god of Muhammad is at war to rule over this planet. It is quite evident. Well if Allah created the planet who created the Kaffirs and Mushrikeens? You are either for or against Allah’s higher ambitions. See your life is impacted by sentient entities and even by flying dead rocks floating in the sky. If the “luck” is in your favour, you will find yourself standing on top of the world. Otherwise, it will all feel like slavery.

Nobody wants to help you to escape the shackles of hierarchy that you are born with. Even your existence does not want to escape this preset. Your likes and dislikes are framed by the flow of energy within you. Now you are supposed to fight entities, flying rocks and even your very own existence. It is not easy. This fight consumed my last 14 years of life and I was on a fast track. For you, it could take lifetimes.

Now the process will be hard to explain and near impossible to perform. Here is the process. The next process is symbolically explained and deals with the utilization of a higher level of Tantra.

Even the breath you take in has an impact on us. The slightest discomfort is enough to ruin our day. So the first step is isolation and I do not talk about isolation from the social world. You have to isolate your energy system from the universe and that is impossible. We eat food and we need sunlight. These all are external energy sources. You will die, if you try this. So before isolating the system, first, we will require an untainted energy source. Now there could not be total isolation, then we will have to look for the isolation of essential elements of Shakti within the system. This will enable you to complete your life journey.

During the process, the structures and entities which withhold power over you will try to resist your progress and for that, you will have to use a method to hide yourself and that is quite impossible. This will require you not to make noise and embrace emptiness. Camouflage yourself with noise and activity in lower centres and uphold the isolation in upper centres. Anyways most of the entities and control structures are not disturbed when we follow the above-mentioned steps.

Finally, I just want to say that the fruit of wisdom is worth eating. It makes the gods stand exposed in front of you.

What is God to you?

I was a cocky teenager. I used to make provocative statements and lived in a world of grand narratives. Sometimes, I dreamt of true harmony because we were brought up utopianists with extreme Gandhian morality as our standard. The problem people like us is that we live in our heads. If the content of our heads is allowed to become a reality, most of the time, it is seen that the other heads roll. I was a pseudo-atheist because it was cool.

Yes, yes. I met with hardships and crippling pain but that pain just made me want to spit on the face of god, if it existed. If god is something external or more correctly another individual then the relationship between God and I must be like that of any worldly relationship. For me, God could not have had the titles of judge, master, creator, guide, punisher, rewarder, conqueror, parent, partner, etcetra. For me, god had to be something more intimate. Anyway, I am not the focus here. You are.

We add titles to our names, Theist, Atheist, Agnostic, etc. Do these make any sense? So let me explain. Have you ever heard a sane human questioning does the air exists or not? Though intangible in most cases, it is felt in many ways. Nowadays, we have metrics to measure it.

Similarly, we need to have definite metrics to measure the intangible. This problem of God being out of reach and God must be approached only by the feeling of servitude the root of many evil like terrorism and better than thou begins from it. The world is separated in two, us versus them. The older literature, the first of the Ved and Tantra approaches nature and entities in a very different way. The problem is the interpretation by us. The later literature taught servitude towards the eternal but the ancient literature approaches with interrogative manner. In ancient literature, anything which exists as a separate individual is explained as a transaction. The all-mighty merciful God is a recent construct.

The Gods were raping, dominating, vengeful, stubborn, hedonistic, promiscuous and cruel. This literature is similar across the Earth. Suddenly these Gods realized we can not rule over humanity with these traits and these disguised gods came into existence. Now the biggest con in this is that ancient literature gives out methods to peek into the domain of these gods, now the people who possessed these abilities were systematically eradicated in Abrahamic societies. The people with healing abilities, people with sight into the other world, and people whose knowledge could challenge the authority of god were punished for their existence. Now, you do not have any access to the domain of the god. You are forced to believe that god is something good and worthy of your worship and every such thought that questions the authority of god is to be eliminated. Doesn’t it look like a proper con scheme?

Now let’s approach this question from a different angle. You acquired your beliefs and affiliations over time. These ideologies give you identity and there is no problem in defending your beliefs. This is part of your personal space and must be respected but just like any personal opinion, if it is exposed publically, it will be no longer protected and it will be subjected to scrutiny. It will be better that you introspect thoroughly before expressing, don’t sell your belief. “Do you believe in our lord and saviour….?”, well do you truly believe? Your beliefs must not take refuge in ambiguity and agnosticism.

There are many types of people. Some use religious doctrine to defend their identities. They do not care for the understanding of the nature of God. Their goals are either to debate, take a morally superior vantage point or find refuge in an establishment. Debate is a form of entertainment, moral superiority is a defence mechanism and refuge-seeking is a way to maintain sanity when exposed to a limitless universe.

There are a few people who are touched by something which could be called divine. Shamans, Oracles, Aveshists, Clairvoyants, and even the typical “gut feeling” people have something with a touch of divine. Now these people are vulnerable as much as they are capable. If tomorrow a spirit comes and tells you I am God, gifts you with things and after earning your trust makes you a tool of their plot. Many great humans were part of such a plot line. These humans tend to become sheep of their sheperds and sheperds in the end rob their sheep of wool, meat and lambs. Why was Abraham asked for his children?

There are very few people who possess godly capabilities. Those who understand the game and choose the path of power. They invest their time and efforts to circumvent the expanse of nature. They travel deep and above to understand the equations. These people could be deemed as walking Gods on the planet. These are rare to be seen and rarer to be taken guidance from.

Finally, there is a type even rarer than the Godly people. When you have seen joy and pain, heaven and hell, holy and heinous. When you have been through multiple cycles of it then comes an onset. Where you look for an escape or something that makes much more sense. In Dharmic religions, Mukti or freedom has multiple layers. Mukti from birth death cycles is a type of Mukti and there is also a type of Mukti where an individual no longer exists. This Mukti also becomes the goal for many. Mukti is sought by many but very few look for the underlying phenomena. Why is the current state of existence different from Mukti? This question unlocks a different layer of seeking. The term “God” could mean multiple things for multiple people but what hat does it mean to you?

So what is your relationship with God? Are you an atheist and use God as a tool for your entertainment? Do you hide in God to be safe in uncertainty? Do you have the “grace” of God on you? Do you want to become a God? or the god was a fad to you and now you look for something more deeper and truly eternal?

You can be anything, believer, or nonbeliever, you can be in a state where the word belief makes no sense. A state where you are truly adamant that god does or does not exist. In all these states just don’t lie to yourself, lie to the world just not to yourself. Do not believe in things, research till you can reach an answer. A point where you no longer have to believe. Life will never stop to intrigue you.

The Relationship between Entities

Once the god of creation Brahma was asked, “Please tell us, what is the relationship between divine beings and humans.” He replied that “the relationship is similar to the relationship that that any two individual beings have.” He explained that “the relationship is transactional, you give us the gods tribute using ritual sacrifices (Homa/Hawan), and in turn, we bless you all with manifesting your material desires.” He did not honey coat his words. According to him, everything was simple, you give us things and you get things in return.

Even though the stories are quite simple, Indra of the Puranic versions fights to serve his purpose. He fights for his kingdom and his gains. He kills his half-brother in a fight for dominance. The text states that he killed Vritrasura to free his possession of water element. Vritrasura, being a son of the elemental mother of water Danu, had his right to possess the water element. Humans (Hindus), who gave their homa to Indra, were not given the right to water as the homa was not given to Vritrasura. So, Indra attacked Vritrasura to protect his domain and nothing else. Evil is a myth; everyone is serving their purpose.

The powerless serve whoever is powerful. It is the way of the world. The gods that you serve might not be the gods for someone else. The demons might be the gods for someone else. The dogs will fight for their masters even if the master is evil for the rest of the world. People want to deny the hierarchy of existence but it is a futile process. There will always be rich and poor, good and bad, masters and servers, “affluent people” and “savages.” Classes and hierarchies shall forever exist. We can make this world accessible but we won’t be able to make the world equal. Being civilized simply honours the hierarchy, laughing together, and respecting personal boundaries. Remember you will have to conform to this reality, if anything breaches this hierarchy there shall be strife. If you wish to live in peace know your position in this existence.

Stating all of that always remember you are allowed to work on yourself. Know your existence supersedes the will of the mighty. Very few beings truly want to help you. Most of the time there is always an ulterior motive. The celestials, do not wish to help you, they are there to serve their purposes. Do not believe in the things which stand in the darkness. A door opens both ways. If your God can see you, you shall also be able to see your god. If you are serving your gods with your faith, you must be able to see them. You must be able to understand their motives you must be able to see what they are.

Do not trust, the world is selfish. Being an individual being, your existence for you is the highest. Do not die for a land, cause, or a god. Serve, but your purpose. Before being completely selfish, first, try to understand the higher purpose. I am not the prophet to tell you what the higher purpose is. It is a discovery you shall have to discover on your own. Don’t be a sheep, the shepherd shall take your wool and meat if he wants to. Shepherd shall protect you in his capacity but he shall throw you to the wolf if his own life is at stake.

These words are not for simple-minded people and I am not a master who shall guide you. I’m just a fellow traveller who is telling you the bridge ahead is broken. You have the right to go on that path and discover for yourself. Open your eyes and realize, they are not going to facilitate your higher calling. They are there for their own goals and you are here to discover your existence. I am just trying to remove their clothes and blindfold off your eyes.

Let the sheep and shepherds be, and realize your own goals.

Where it began…

Around fourteen years ago (being written on Feb 5, 2024), I felt an extreme dispassion and disgust towards life. I also felt an urge to study Jyotish (Indian astronomy and astrology) and Tantra (Indian Occult). In the starting two years it could easily have been diagnosed as something psychological if not a psychiatric disorder.

I never imagined that I was headed towards a very different journey. The starting four years were excruciating. These included tenancies of self-harm and a lack of feeling of self-worth and one day suddenly everything was bright again. Over time layers of depth opened up. The most significant event was a particular night. It was 11:15 PM on Dec 28, 2015. Kundalini flowed through me. It is a once-in-a-lifetime experience like having your first orgasm which came as a surprise.

Let me explain what Kundalini is and what it feels like. Unlike how others mention it, the Kundalini does not feel pleasurable. It feels like something external taking control of your body. It’s chaotic, powerful and wild. It also does not feel like possession, you are in control. It is something like a fireman handling a firehose but it is inside your body. It is intentionless and propertyless energy. Just like orgasm, it is not the same second time. You expect it. Some people get to know of it somehow, and then they plan for it but again it’s not the same when you know about it. It’s just different when you do not expect it. It was so feral and overwhelming that I had to get help from experts to contain it. I will explain more about it in the coming time but I can say that it leaves you with a wonder that there is something that you could have died without experiencing and other people don’t even have a clue of its existence.

It doesn’t bring you anything good in the beginning but it can make bad things happen, initially. It’s like giving a knife to a toddler. Over time it becomes approachable and accessible by understanding but you surely will get a few cuts while trying to understand it. It is the reason why people look for a Guru. A capable Guru is very well needed for it too but give up the idea you will find a Guru. You need a type of Guru that is only for you. You need a Guru that is like a dedicated parent. A Guru with a “world view” and with multiple disciples will cause hindrance in your progress, if not serve as an impediment. You can damage yourself along the way where you will have no chance to recover and it can even harm you for lifetimes, not just this life. Seeing my initial four years made me so desperate that I just wanted an escape and the Kundalini could only serve well with such a person. Kundalini came to me like that only. Kundalini made me too desperate and then came in. A Guru must place you before his existence then only one can help another when Kundalini is considered. Once Kundalini comes in one can no longer be an atheist, unless of course one considers oneself psychologically unstable.

Another type of entity that can help you on this path is one that constantly tells you to not go on further. Kundalini is a brake-less car on a frictionless surface. Once it goes no one can stop it, even handling the direction is hard. You need someone to constantly remind you, DO NOT ACCELERATE. It’s the only thing needed from such an entity.

After some time, slowly but surely, you will have Siddhis. Now there is this idea that Siddhis are something that constitutes supernatural or paranormal abilities. I will not deny that claim but Siddhis could even give you something small yet elegant like beautiful handwriting or an astute perception and attraction towards beauty. It can make you feel content and happy. Let me explain this a bit. You have life energy flowing in you that is why you are alive. If it stops, it causes Samadhi, silence, death or coma-like states. If it flows subtly, it can cause love, beauty, cunning or similar states. If it flows forcibly, it can cause damage or change in your body. These things are very dynamic and can not be measured. Kundalini is a way you can voluntarily change your existence. It is also to be remembered that one can not have everything, a slim person can not be a fat person. Choices, alignments and sacrifices are to be made. Generally, people do a lot of preparation towards Siddhis and use them for their needs. There is nothing bad about these. There are actions and consequences. All these people who say that you do not need Siddhis, well such people either never have been in a scenario of need or had been forcibly castrated out of desire. Siddhis help you to make your life easy and beautiful. These help you in certain ways, so you can spend time on other things of value.

After Siddhis comes an understanding of what is around us. I will need several hours to explain it but here I will explain it briefly. It is a realization that I am not alone. A child is born and is brought up like he is king of the world. He is pampered and a single drop of tear is handled like something very serious has happened. Similar exclusivity is felt in the initial phases of Sadhna. You are curious, exploring, free and pampered but over time you have to realize that there are several like you. Everyone has their intentions. Some are minding their own business, some are enjoying their journey, some are good and helpful and a very big part of these relationships are transactional. You do this for me and I will do this for you. It is all natural. Scientifically, there are four main symbiotic relationships: mutualism, commensalism, parasitism, and competition. Both benefit one another, one is benefited and another has no impact, one is benefited and another one is harmed, and both are competing. You are not alone and you are not the only type of being. You have to find your place in this world. If you go in a dark alley, you can get robbed, kidnapped or killed, or nothing could happen. It all depends on the area you are exploring. Making the right decisions that all we have to learn.

In my life, the first step was depression, the second one was Kundalini, the third one was Siddhis, the fourth one was understanding of surroundings and the fifth one was the realization of the goal. See people have their ideals and gods. People think that Jesus, Krishna, Buddha or other entities of their preference are the epitome of life. See, once upon a time we all used to think that our caretakers were the most powerful beings in the world. Over time, we grew out of this feeling. Similarly, if we explore a bit more these perceptions about these epitomes might change. We live in a very unstable world, so I will choose my words wisely. God is something beyond one’s perception and certainly is powerful. Let’s say somehow we were able to bring God into some form of measurement then we could realize something more about God. So in my measurement, all these entities sitting on their mountains came into the resolution of my measurements. This is my personal opinion that these entities are not the epitome for me. Even Gods are not that fantastic, once one can see their expanse. I will not shove this thought down your throats but once we can see past the horizon the perception changes. They will always remain excellent, powerful and maybe respectable too but they might not be infinite, omnipotent and omnipresent any more.

My goal is exclusive to my existence and depends upon the current understanding which came out of my explorations. This is not your goal. In my life, I outgrew my clothes multiple times. Similarly, I outgrew my ideals and Gods along the way. I am walking towards my goal and that’s it.