II 2: All about Kundalini

What is Kundalini?

It is an experience. It is something which is rare and happens to a limited number of people with certain astrological alignments or it is gifted from entities or powerful humans. It is neither magical nor extraordinary. Without training it is like TV static and even if you are trained in it then the trainers pass their expectations onto you.

Real untamed Kundalini requires knowledge of history and techniques to use it. Otherwise, it can end up in non-productive ways. For example, servitude, occult, gimmicks to impress simpletons or wasted on stupid goals.

If I have to define it, I will call it the fertility of the ash. Let me explain. The application of Kundalini is immense. A singular definition of the subject will be impossible to attain. The ash is very fertile and it is identityless. Ash is the last form after we burn something. Now ash is ready to take new forms that fertility is Kundalini.

The god of death consumes everything and turns it into ash and the fertile manure is Kundalini.

How to get it?

Naag Lakshmi, the infinite bluish-white ocean of milk (Kshear Sagar), the snake mother is the source of infinite Kundalini.

The snake mother is the personification of Kundalini. In reality, it is an all-pervading force. Once her gatekeepers allow you to meet her, you will experience something you haven’t experienced. The first time It will be overwhelming and it will remain overwhelming for about a month. You will feel an energy flowing through you like opening a campaign. Secondly, it is not beyond your control, you are always in control.

Yes, we know what the authoritarian book of Slavers says but similar things were said about a vague figure impregnating virgin women. We do not believe in servitude but opening our eyes and look for the truth. We are not sheep looking for a shepherd because when the tiger comes the shepherd will be the first to run. Let the shepherd pretend to be powerful and the sheep live in their delusion. There are tigers, ancient even before the “God” came into existence. It’s not blasphemy when you have witnessed it. Do not depend on the 2000-year-old attestations from people whose scientific temper allowed them to burn women as witches.

The world needs people with vision. Sheep are disrobed, milked and killed by their shepherds.

Steps to get it?

Worship Naag Lakshmi and do Bhuvenweswai beej in an elongated voice in the evening, 12 times daily for a month. This must be done after 3 months of only Vegetarian diet and not touching alcohol.

Do not expect something big.

What to expect after getting it?

Nothing 😂, no miracles will happen, no heavens are promised. It is just like opening your eyes in a world where people have glued their eyelids shut. There will be some clarity but more confusion. You will start to peek into a world which humans have not visited for a long time. You will have to learn to climb ladders on your own.

Is Kundalini risky?

Yes, if you do stupid things or your guiding forces are stupid. Always remember that some people and entities are more powerful than you are. Never try to have domination and never use Shakti offensively. If something invades your personal space or someone even plans to do it, feel free to use it for defence. Kundalini must be used for your life’s betterment and importantly for knowledge. Think about your profit, not other’s loss. This all is just suggestive, you are free to do anything.

If something happens then contact me using the contact page.

II 1: Project Inside Initial

There is a disdain towards anything spiritual in a large part of the population and the others who are into concepts like god, yoga, meditation, and breathing processes are just looking for relief from fears or a community to belong to.

Even if there is a genuine venture into the wilderness of the spiritual domain, it is lost in either servitude, risky attempts, domination, or obsessive complexes.

I am not an ideal person that you could look at as a guiding star but I have experiences and concepts that are rare. Gyanamrita is just an expression of my life and I am sharing it.

Inside Initial is a short article series. Read it, I hope it entertains you and let’s travel together.

What is God to you?

I was a cocky teenager. I used to make provocative statements and lived in a world of grand narratives. Sometimes, I dreamt of true harmony because we were brought up utopianists with extreme Gandhian morality as our standard. The problem people like us is that we live in our heads. If the content of our heads is allowed to become a reality, most of the time, it is seen that the other heads roll. I was a pseudo-atheist because it was cool.

Yes, yes. I met with hardships and crippling pain but that pain just made me want to spit on the face of god, if it existed. If god is something external or more correctly another individual then the relationship between God and I must be like that of any worldly relationship. For me, God could not have had the titles of judge, master, creator, guide, punisher, rewarder, conqueror, parent, partner, etcetra. For me, god had to be something more intimate. Anyway, I am not the focus here. You are.

We add titles to our names, Theist, Atheist, Agnostic, etc. Do these make any sense? So let me explain. Have you ever heard a sane human questioning does the air exists or not? Though intangible in most cases, it is felt in many ways. Nowadays, we have metrics to measure it.

Similarly, we need to have definite metrics to measure the intangible. This problem of God being out of reach and God must be approached only by the feeling of servitude the root of many evil like terrorism and better than thou begins from it. The world is separated in two, us versus them. The older literature, the first of the Ved and Tantra approaches nature and entities in a very different way. The problem is the interpretation by us. The later literature taught servitude towards the eternal but the ancient literature approaches with interrogative manner. In ancient literature, anything which exists as a separate individual is explained as a transaction. The all-mighty merciful God is a recent construct.

The Gods were raping, dominating, vengeful, stubborn, hedonistic, promiscuous and cruel. This literature is similar across the Earth. Suddenly these Gods realized we can not rule over humanity with these traits and these disguised gods came into existence. Now the biggest con in this is that ancient literature gives out methods to peek into the domain of these gods, now the people who possessed these abilities were systematically eradicated in Abrahamic societies. The people with healing abilities, people with sight into the other world, and people whose knowledge could challenge the authority of god were punished for their existence. Now, you do not have any access to the domain of the god. You are forced to believe that god is something good and worthy of your worship and every such thought that questions the authority of god is to be eliminated. Doesn’t it look like a proper con scheme?

Now let’s approach this question from a different angle. You acquired your beliefs and affiliations over time. These ideologies give you identity and there is no problem in defending your beliefs. This is part of your personal space and must be respected but just like any personal opinion, if it is exposed publically, it will be no longer protected and it will be subjected to scrutiny. It will be better that you introspect thoroughly before expressing, don’t sell your belief. “Do you believe in our lord and saviour….?”, well do you truly believe? Your beliefs must not take refuge in ambiguity and agnosticism.

There are many types of people. Some use religious doctrine to defend their identities. They do not care for the understanding of the nature of God. Their goals are either to debate, take a morally superior vantage point or find refuge in an establishment. Debate is a form of entertainment, moral superiority is a defence mechanism and refuge-seeking is a way to maintain sanity when exposed to a limitless universe.

There are a few people who are touched by something which could be called divine. Shamans, Oracles, Aveshists, Clairvoyants, and even the typical “gut feeling” people have something with a touch of divine. Now these people are vulnerable as much as they are capable. If tomorrow a spirit comes and tells you I am God, gifts you with things and after earning your trust makes you a tool of their plot. Many great humans were part of such a plot line. These humans tend to become sheep of their sheperds and sheperds in the end rob their sheep of wool, meat and lambs. Why was Abraham asked for his children?

There are very few people who possess godly capabilities. Those who understand the game and choose the path of power. They invest their time and efforts to circumvent the expanse of nature. They travel deep and above to understand the equations. These people could be deemed as walking Gods on the planet. These are rare to be seen and rarer to be taken guidance from.

Finally, there is a type even rarer than the Godly people. When you have seen joy and pain, heaven and hell, holy and heinous. When you have been through multiple cycles of it then comes an onset. Where you look for an escape or something that makes much more sense. In Dharmic religions, Mukti or freedom has multiple layers. Mukti from birth death cycles is a type of Mukti and there is also a type of Mukti where an individual no longer exists. This Mukti also becomes the goal for many. Mukti is sought by many but very few look for the underlying phenomena. Why is the current state of existence different from Mukti? This question unlocks a different layer of seeking. The term “God” could mean multiple things for multiple people but what hat does it mean to you?

So what is your relationship with God? Are you an atheist and use God as a tool for your entertainment? Do you hide in God to be safe in uncertainty? Do you have the “grace” of God on you? Do you want to become a God? or the god was a fad to you and now you look for something more deeper and truly eternal?

You can be anything, believer, or nonbeliever, you can be in a state where the word belief makes no sense. A state where you are truly adamant that god does or does not exist. In all these states just don’t lie to yourself, lie to the world just not to yourself. Do not believe in things, research till you can reach an answer. A point where you no longer have to believe. Life will never stop to intrigue you.

Where it began…

Around fourteen years ago (being written on Feb 5, 2024), I felt an extreme dispassion and disgust towards life. I also felt an urge to study Jyotish (Indian astronomy and astrology) and Tantra (Indian Occult). In the starting two years it could easily have been diagnosed as something psychological if not a psychiatric disorder.

I never imagined that I was headed towards a very different journey. The starting four years were excruciating. These included tenancies of self-harm and a lack of feeling of self-worth and one day suddenly everything was bright again. Over time layers of depth opened up. The most significant event was a particular night. It was 11:15 PM on Dec 28, 2015. Kundalini flowed through me. It is a once-in-a-lifetime experience like having your first orgasm which came as a surprise.

Let me explain what Kundalini is and what it feels like. Unlike how others mention it, the Kundalini does not feel pleasurable. It feels like something external taking control of your body. It’s chaotic, powerful and wild. It also does not feel like possession, you are in control. It is something like a fireman handling a firehose but it is inside your body. It is intentionless and propertyless energy. Just like orgasm, it is not the same second time. You expect it. Some people get to know of it somehow, and then they plan for it but again it’s not the same when you know about it. It’s just different when you do not expect it. It was so feral and overwhelming that I had to get help from experts to contain it. I will explain more about it in the coming time but I can say that it leaves you with a wonder that there is something that you could have died without experiencing and other people don’t even have a clue of its existence.

It doesn’t bring you anything good in the beginning but it can make bad things happen, initially. It’s like giving a knife to a toddler. Over time it becomes approachable and accessible by understanding but you surely will get a few cuts while trying to understand it. It is the reason why people look for a Guru. A capable Guru is very well needed for it too but give up the idea you will find a Guru. You need a type of Guru that is only for you. You need a Guru that is like a dedicated parent. A Guru with a “world view” and with multiple disciples will cause hindrance in your progress, if not serve as an impediment. You can damage yourself along the way where you will have no chance to recover and it can even harm you for lifetimes, not just this life. Seeing my initial four years made me so desperate that I just wanted an escape and the Kundalini could only serve well with such a person. Kundalini came to me like that only. Kundalini made me too desperate and then came in. A Guru must place you before his existence then only one can help another when Kundalini is considered. Once Kundalini comes in one can no longer be an atheist, unless of course one considers oneself psychologically unstable.

Another type of entity that can help you on this path is one that constantly tells you to not go on further. Kundalini is a brake-less car on a frictionless surface. Once it goes no one can stop it, even handling the direction is hard. You need someone to constantly remind you, DO NOT ACCELERATE. It’s the only thing needed from such an entity.

After some time, slowly but surely, you will have Siddhis. Now there is this idea that Siddhis are something that constitutes supernatural or paranormal abilities. I will not deny that claim but Siddhis could even give you something small yet elegant like beautiful handwriting or an astute perception and attraction towards beauty. It can make you feel content and happy. Let me explain this a bit. You have life energy flowing in you that is why you are alive. If it stops, it causes Samadhi, silence, death or coma-like states. If it flows subtly, it can cause love, beauty, cunning or similar states. If it flows forcibly, it can cause damage or change in your body. These things are very dynamic and can not be measured. Kundalini is a way you can voluntarily change your existence. It is also to be remembered that one can not have everything, a slim person can not be a fat person. Choices, alignments and sacrifices are to be made. Generally, people do a lot of preparation towards Siddhis and use them for their needs. There is nothing bad about these. There are actions and consequences. All these people who say that you do not need Siddhis, well such people either never have been in a scenario of need or had been forcibly castrated out of desire. Siddhis help you to make your life easy and beautiful. These help you in certain ways, so you can spend time on other things of value.

After Siddhis comes an understanding of what is around us. I will need several hours to explain it but here I will explain it briefly. It is a realization that I am not alone. A child is born and is brought up like he is king of the world. He is pampered and a single drop of tear is handled like something very serious has happened. Similar exclusivity is felt in the initial phases of Sadhna. You are curious, exploring, free and pampered but over time you have to realize that there are several like you. Everyone has their intentions. Some are minding their own business, some are enjoying their journey, some are good and helpful and a very big part of these relationships are transactional. You do this for me and I will do this for you. It is all natural. Scientifically, there are four main symbiotic relationships: mutualism, commensalism, parasitism, and competition. Both benefit one another, one is benefited and another has no impact, one is benefited and another one is harmed, and both are competing. You are not alone and you are not the only type of being. You have to find your place in this world. If you go in a dark alley, you can get robbed, kidnapped or killed, or nothing could happen. It all depends on the area you are exploring. Making the right decisions that all we have to learn.

In my life, the first step was depression, the second one was Kundalini, the third one was Siddhis, the fourth one was understanding of surroundings and the fifth one was the realization of the goal. See people have their ideals and gods. People think that Jesus, Krishna, Buddha or other entities of their preference are the epitome of life. See, once upon a time we all used to think that our caretakers were the most powerful beings in the world. Over time, we grew out of this feeling. Similarly, if we explore a bit more these perceptions about these epitomes might change. We live in a very unstable world, so I will choose my words wisely. God is something beyond one’s perception and certainly is powerful. Let’s say somehow we were able to bring God into some form of measurement then we could realize something more about God. So in my measurement, all these entities sitting on their mountains came into the resolution of my measurements. This is my personal opinion that these entities are not the epitome for me. Even Gods are not that fantastic, once one can see their expanse. I will not shove this thought down your throats but once we can see past the horizon the perception changes. They will always remain excellent, powerful and maybe respectable too but they might not be infinite, omnipotent and omnipresent any more.

My goal is exclusive to my existence and depends upon the current understanding which came out of my explorations. This is not your goal. In my life, I outgrew my clothes multiple times. Similarly, I outgrew my ideals and Gods along the way. I am walking towards my goal and that’s it.